Jubeats is surprisingly fun lol. well its not the only thing in my mind right now .
i need a headphone desperately right now ..!! best if its monster beats.
march holidays next week . term 1 going to be over . so fast .......
time flies when your studying hard xD
junhui having his chalet , im gonna ask him to invite her , i hope she's free .
i've got a shit load of things i wanna talk to her about.
yesterday was the worst day ever, i accidentally helped one of her friends that was stuck under a block because of the rain. alice's whole class probably saw that, i hope she didnt take it the way i dont want her to take it . yeah i admit im also a little she-bang with girls nowadays . especially amanda lau.
however to me , amanda is just someone i am grateful for withstanding my shittiness.
but for her ,
its still hard on me beause im not sure.
im not sure whether she feels the same i feel about her.
i cant randomly just infiltrate her brain like that . i gotta find a plan fast , before its seriously too late. so maybe ill start by not being too open to other girls .
its a weird decision but heck , love made me do it and im gonna try anyway.
there was once , i was walking to class when i saw her at the opposite . i forgot that we ever broke up , i waved ecstatically at her while smiling the best i had ever smiled , like in the past . and the as usual reaction was a great movement of her arms responding to my gesture . then it hit me like a bullet , we werent even together.. it actually punctured my heart , the feeling of draught and despair dominating .
best experience of "you seem so close , yet so far" which ill forever treasure <3 ..
till then, i guess its more alpha , beta and discriminant for me.
ill keep rising even if i keep falling . because babe , im just this stubborn and hopefully sweet in your eyes .