BABE JUST FUCKKING COME BACK TO ME
that felt better ........
so am i better off dead ?
am i better off a quitter?
they say im better off now
then i was ever off with her .
but
i walk with my friend.s
im smiling but trying not to drag my feet
i became more crazy now.
im more vulgar now
they say im mad
but its perfectly clear to me.
i got nothing else to lose now.
maybe they got something to lose that why.
im just trying to find new ways
ways that may help me
i rang the fuking long john silver bell in tm mall today like a mad person.
i felt no shame. everyone looked . i just walked away.
there wasnt shame , there was just disappooiintment .
i jjust couldnt find your face in the crowd.
that face looking at me.
hwee bought razer keyboard + mouse. went home tested it .
followed him thru out . we had basketball in the morn , weiming organised it.
went to singapore swimmming club to see wenkang in action.
simei ite vs singapore swiming club tennis players.
they lost but wenkang is improving by the moment !
ALL THEB EST WENKANG!
i can give you my presence there , i CAN FUCKING GO THERE.
HOW FAR IS IT . IT DOSENT FUCKING MATTER. I GOT LEGS.
but i can only give you a smile and a happy gesture.
the rest of my emotion is taken away all occupied..
then dinner wif the rest , ii didnt eat.
iwent to facebook and checked,
i saw alice
and she said
do you have a crush on someone : yes
FUCK . there was actually someone else.
that was epic right there.
FUCKing aaron wads wrong with you
aaron whats wrong with you
aaron whats wrong with you
aarong whats wrong you
aarons WHATS WRONG WITH YOU
theres a guy that won all your efforts.
i immediately slapped my head againts my table.
im a joke. see how stupid i am.
theres actually an easier way to do things for her
when ibroke wif alice , i felt nothing at first
everyone asked if i was okay , i said OF COURSE.
why would i be sad , I WONT BE SAD
then it hit me.
solid. like someone crushed my heart inside my body
i wonder how long i can keep this up.
acting infront of my friends.
one day im just gonna break down infront of my friends
basketball is just a temporary cure .
it sews up the wound
but the wound keeps opening
even if life makes me super busy ,
theres always the night that makes me think
the moment right before i sleep .
i cant forget
cuz im free to think..
i just cant believe my friends think im already over her
maybe my acting is too damn good.
no point saying shit now .
its just so damn hard to go about your daily life.
well in a while im gonna get better .
thats just true . but this feeling is actually damn shiok but it sucks too